I've been finding it harder and harder to get anyone to talk about Luca or even listen to me talk about him. Even friends who used to talk a little are sick of me. I'm sorry I'm still needy. I'm sad that I'm still sad. But I just am. I should be settling my little boy into childcare. Preparing to feed him 'solids'. And all around me I have babies doing what Luca should be doing. I just want to crawl into a corner and cry. And if someone could hold me when I cry, and not turn away, that would be perfect.
I'm getting spotting again this month. It makes the 2ww shorter anyway. I don't know what to do about it. It's just over a year since the day I found out I was pregnant with Luca. I was so happy. And I was so happy during his pregnancy that I wouldn't have to worry about fertility ever again. How stupid was I?
I'm getting spotting again this month. It makes the 2ww shorter anyway. I don't know what to do about it. It's just over a year since the day I found out I was pregnant with Luca. I was so happy. And I was so happy during his pregnancy that I wouldn't have to worry about fertility ever again. How stupid was I?
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