She's here!

Just a quick note to say that Arabella Gelsi was born safely on Good Friday, 2 April at 3:46am. She came on her own just hours before her scheduled induction. Her birth was a bit dramatic as the midwife in emergency didn't think I was in established labour. I had to go without pain relief until I started to yell - figured I better do something to get some attention. By the time they got me a room in the birth suite I was 9cm and finally got some gas. It was horrible - I've had an epidural on board by then for my other two births. I couldn't push her out fast enough for my liking!

We were so relieved she was alive and well. Steve was crying and I don't know what I was doing but remember telling everyone 'she's alive!'. Even though the birth was quick and scary (just over 2 hours) I got what I wanted in that it was very different to Luca's birth. It was noisy (his birth was so quiet), dramatic (he slipped quietly and sadly into the world without really coming into the world at all), and I delivered her kneeling. She's a sweet little thing, feeding well, waking every 1-2 hours overnight and sleeping a lot of the day.

I haven't felt upset about Luca all over again, but on the other hand I've never stopped grieving him. He is always there pulling at my heart strings as I mother him in a different way to my children here.